I have always put pressure on myself to one do do well in my career. However my fears are now getting the better of me.
I feel like I can no longer think properly and my mind is clouded by anxiety thinking about what I want do and what I enjoy.
I have felt this way for ages now. I now feel inacapble of doing any job, job descriptions scare me. I want to find a new job because the one I have now is really entry level.
My anxiety just has gotten worse and the pressure is really affecting me, though I fight so hard to not let it get to me but it ruins my day at work too. Eg, I could be in a meeting and I cannot speak up as I am so nervous that I dont know what the work is about and seniors are present.
I had a few other careers I wanted to go to but this anxiety is really worrying me that I wont be able to cope in a high pressure job, though i am bored as my job is not as challenging as my degree or the level of work I have done in the past.
I wana overcome this and just go into a field I enjoy and be confident once again. I also have somewhat public speaking anxiety at work, though I could be agood speaker if it wasn't for this but again anxiety takes over and I act like a stupid bimbo unable to talk.
I'm so sick of myself...
...or just paranoid?