I think I was raped.

I actually feel sick right now.

Last night, I went out with a couple of mates to a club and got pretty drunk, I was really quite gone. Anyway, we got a cab home about 4 in the morning, and I was the last one to be dropped off. My memory's quite hazy cause of the alcohol but I remember the cab driver talking to me and the car was parked up. I remember telling him to take me home but he just kept talking to me. The next bit I can remember is being in his house and lying down with him on top of me. Argh it's making me cry just to think about it. I was so drunk, I was just lying there taking the pain, I didn't even put up a struggle or try to push him off me. The bit that confuses me is he dropped me home after.

Today, I spent about an hour in the shower trying to wash every inch of it away. I haven't told anyone about it, I don't think I will, I spoke to my friends and just tried to act normal. I don't even know why I've posted this, I think I just want some support. I should go the chemist to get the pill but I really can't face going. Argh I just can't get it out of my head.

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Reply 1

Bubblebee

Do you have any marks on you? I think you should tell your parents, it's going to be hard but sharing how you are feeling is going to help. How old are you?

Tell someone.

Go to the police straight away. 'I remember telling him to take me home but he just kept talking to me... The next bit I can remember is being in his house and lying down with him on top of me'
Look you need to go to the Police straight away. Something happened and you need to get checked out. Please go now. i am worried about you. Please do not leave it any longer. They will examine you and tell you if you have been raped. It does not matter if you were drunk. Please go now. You have already washed. please do not wash or go to the toilet again. You need to go to the police station now.

Reply 4

BlackpoolCraig

It sounds like there is a problem. And what I would say is that you should report it, and book yourself in for a medical examination. if there are bruises down there, then that is evidence which may be used. the longer you leave it, then the less strong your case against him will be.

Reply 5

Anonymous #1

Bubblebee

Do you have any marks on you? I think you should tell your parents, it's going to be hard but sharing how you are feeling is going to help. How old are you?

I've got a few bruises on my arms. I'm 20. Telling my parents is out of the question, they're really conservative, it'd be really weird and strange and I don't know how they'd react.

Reply 6

bone-machine

please take a deep breath, get dressed and go and get the morning after pill. that is your priority right now.xxxxxxxxx

Reply 7

BlackpoolCraig

Anonymous

I've got a few bruises on my arms. I'm 20. Telling my parents is out of the question, they're really conservative, it'd be really weird and strange and I don't know how they'd react.

Well, you haven't done anything wrong here. And those bruises are evidence, so make sure you get them examined.

Reply 8

bone-machine

also if you felt pain its likely that there is some medical proof that you were raped if they examined you ie brusing, signs of forced penetration. this is second prioroty if you want justice to be done. but right now please go and get the pill xxx

Reply 9

love_mojitos

They will give you the Pill at the police station.
Look, you do not need to tell your parents. But please go down to the police station. To put it bluntely by wahing you have washed away alot of the dna, but have you got your clothes from last night? Please I hope they are not washed. Put them in a plastic bag. Go to the police stastion now. You will get interviewed by a lady, a doctor will look at your lady parts, take swabs, get the morning after pill, test you for sti's and then they will support you. Please go now. Every second is wasted. If you feel you can not tell them the least you can do is go to the police station. Please, tomorrow is to late.

Reply 10

tinypony

I once went with 6 friends from school to a nightclub in copenhagen. Well it happened that one of the girls got separated from us, and she left with a guy. So it happened that the guy phoned his 5 friends and well, literarily, she got raped by 6 guys of my age (17-18). Luckily we found her coming out from the bushes nearby, we went straight to the police, she got to the hospital and was examined. The guys were caught.
You need to go straight as they need "evidence" in the form of tissue, or worse, semen.

Reply 11

jenna_is_ace

You need to tell the police, if you can't face telling your parents, there should be some kind of support and counselling there for you at the police station too.

You need to report it, if this taxi driver's done this to you, he could quite easily do it again to another girl.

Reply 12

love_mojitos

Sorry about your friend. The most likely evidence is semen, it will be his DNA. The lady doctor can tell if you have had sex,please there is still a possibilty that you have not been raped. Please go. Please go. I am on msn if you want to chat?

Reply 13

k-lee C

you need someone's support right now, even if it's not your parents. a close friend or something?

like the others have said, morning after pill and police without delay.
also, can you remember the cab firm that you used? it would be pretty easy to find out who the driver was and make sure his sleazy ass is locked up for a very long time.

so sorry that this has happened to you. xxx

Reply 14

ladylady

If YOU don't go to the police then it'll be YOUR fault if any other girl gets raped by him in a similar way. You can prevent this from happening again - maybe to a little 13 year old or one of your friends - and you HAVE TO. Imagine watching him do this to somebody else.

GO TO THE POLICE. NOW. I BEG YOU.

Good luck.

Reply 15

love_mojitos

Do not start that emotional **** ladylady. Its the taxi drivers fault if he rapes someone, not her's. However please go and tell someone, he could rape again. Please go to the police station.

Reply 16

Saffie

go to the police, they will be the people who can support you :hugs:

as well as perhaps catch the guy. You don't have to go through this alone.

Reply 17

AlexanderKing

Take all the clothing worn that night, place that in a plastic bag. Go to your nearest police station immediately. Then you can try and piece together this Taxi company, find the driver that night, have this person brought to justice.

Good Luck

Reply 18

wackysparkle

Definately go straight to the police. I fear that you may have washed off some evidence - but it has been known that rape victims do this because of the intense shame that they feel afterwards.
They will be able to use any evidence that is on you now, like you said - you have bruises and such. And the most important thing is that YOU are reporting that YOU have been raped, course they will take immediate action.
Ask your friends who shared the cab with you whether they recall any license plate number, what the guy looked like, what cab company it was if you don't remember.
Right now you need to report this right away before you have lost any signs of evidence, DNA that could still be on you/ your clothes.
I am very sorry to hear that this has happened to you, and I really hope that you get the courage to report it so that this ******* can't do it to any other girls.
I offer all my support to you for you to get through this, please feel free to chat to me on MSN.

Reply 19

love_mojitos

Do not wash or go to the toilet again. Take all your clothes you worn last night and go to a Police station. they can even collect you from your street if you want. Please get help. It is not fair or right. Get help, the longer you leave it the worse it can get. please please please.