I have had a tough year, lots of depression and anxiety. Lots of sleepless nights, I have convinced myself God is a fantasy. At the moment I'm going through a terrible health scare, I know thats a reason to stray further away from the idea of God but my heart wants some kind of peace and some sort of faith, I have none of that left at all. I am sick of waking up amidst darkness daily and I want to find a place of calmness and serenity.
I don't know why I am even writing this, maybe to find someone who has been in a similar position or just someone religious who won't judge me.
I am also starting counselling soon too.
...with these A Level results?