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I had been going out with a girl at an A-Level college for a year, it was a very poor experience for both of us. She had a boyfriend at the same but also liked me a bit more than a friend. I had been too pushy, impatient and indeed immature too, looking back. We finished the relationship in a very, very bad way two years ago. But still we email/see each other every three months at max.
At the time of chasing her, I tried to go through the backdoor, the old trick - getting her best friend to help me out. Her soul mate was in her country, Northern Europe, but she disliked me so much over the phone and MSN at the time. One day she came over to London(2 years ago), she suddenly changed her attitude and apparently really fancied me. Ever since, she tried to flirt a lot on MSN.
Yesterday, we met again as she flied to see the girl this summer, and three of us sat down for a coffee. Afterwards, I just wanted to be friendly and took her to see my university and stuff. We(two) then went to a park and enjoyed the Sun for a bit. I had/wanted to leave, and she started to become really upset and said that she wouldn't find way home and all these girly stuff. No guy would leave a girl like this.
At the end, I offered her a nice hug and it lasted for ages and we ended up feeling up each other. We kissed. Later in the evening, she sent me an email - "it is been one of the most beautiful days." I didn't reply.
I am not very attracted to her for
1) She is almost 6ft and I am 6.2ft, and I fear that she will be taller than me two years down the line..
2) She is this girl's best friend. I feel it's immoral to do anything like this. Moreover I failed to get the first girl and it just looks pathetic to move on to her friend.
3) She is a very smart person, but her personality is not my type.
I had the feeling that she would seduce me at some point and it all happened yesterday. I don't want to hurt her. I don't know if I should tell the girl I liked two years ago what happened. I don't know if the whole story is really messed up and I should just stop talking to both of them. I need your advice - people over 18s please.