Just finished my first yr of med school...failed 4 exams out of 12 and gotta do a qualifying exam in 3 days, which if i fail i'll get kicked out, unless i appeal.
problem: i'm not nearly prepared for it...ask me why? i love med school.. i feel so happy doing the course, no other one would suit me better...
but the main problem is that believe it or not, at the med school i'm in, i'm the victim of bullying. i formed a group of friends who i thought were nice.. and they r not.. basically, one of the girls accuses me of liking her bf just because we used to talk a lot and believe me i don't..and they always make me feel left out...they make me feel down about myself...they insult me directly, esp the boy that i was close with...at lecture theatres every morning he used to insult me in front of everyone calling me fat and ugly... very immature i know and i didnt think that ppl at uni could be this cruel..
i have tried making new groups of friends but each time, my original "friends" butt in and start spreading rumours about me...saying that ppl of my race are "sly"
basically, all this bullying made me lose hope and i wanted to drop out of the thing that i loved doing the best and wanted to just find another uni that will let me percieve my dream of becoming a doc...
i'm so depressed and so stuck because i've been so upset that everytime i've sat down to study i just start crying or it doesn't go in my head. thats why i failed my june exams and i'm not prepared for the qualifying one..
i don't know what to do.. i know this is immature but it really gets me down... maybe its my fault for being sensitive but believe me i've tried to ignore it and make new friends, and i've tried confronting them and now i hate my med school and i don't want to go back there again... but i want to do medicine...
someone please give me guidance... thank u