I have been depressed for the past 6 months. It is probably due to my worries about having to leave my whole life behind, but I am quite certain there is an even deeper cause to it all. Anyway, my life has been quite stressful these few months and the only thought of some relief is that I have a great support system consisting of friends and family.
In just about three weeks I will be leaving my country to start my first year at UCL, and I am extremely worried that my mental health will obstruct my experience. Ever since I started feeling this way I've become much more of an introvert and just the thought of having to socialise is overhwelming (although paradoxically I don't want to be on my own once there). I just feel like I don't fit in anywhere but my home, even though I have moved around a lot in the course of my childhood and adolescence and have never had trouble fitting in. For some reason I don't feel like I will ever be able to grow solid bonds with anyone.
My academic performance has only been superfluously affected by my condition and all the same I have received good IB results (just one point below my predicted grade), yet I am scared I will not be able to cope with the demands of my uni course. I am passionate about the subject I will be studying (literature) but for some reason I've become unsure whether it is REALLY my vocation.
My therapist, some friends of mine, and my parents have suggested that a change of scenery might actually lift my depression. Having become really pessimistic, I highly doubt this. All the same I have paid for my accomodation and missing this important opportunity would probably make me even more depressed.
I would really appreciate some advice from anyone who has been in a smilar situation. All the enthusiasm of starting afresh, becoming independent ecc ecc ecc is being trounced by my worries.
Thank you in advance!
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- Thread Starter
- 01-09-2016 12:51
- 01-09-2016 12:55
Familiarise yourself with the help available to you at UCL. Work out how to access the pastoral support, such as academic advisors and counselling services, before you have any need of them, so that you don't need to worry about it if you do. If you're particularly worried, you might even be able to get an appointment with them for when you start to discuss any fears and possible next steps and ongoing support that can help with the transition.