I suffer from binge eating too and recently, I have started taking laxatives to 'get rid' of the food as quickly as possible. This is my only other alternative, as I hate vomiting. I don’t know what happens in the evening, but I just lose control and will binge on anything and everything.
I’m a size 12 and weigh (well, last time I checked) 10 and half stone. But I just feel like I’m too fat. I hate myself for binge eating and what it’s doing to my esteem. Sometimes, I only have to look in the mirror and just break down sobbing because I hate the way I look. Then I will go downstairs to the kitchen and binge on food to make me feel better, when in fact it does exactly the opposite.
My binge eating has got worse since I finished my A-level exams because now I eat due to boredom (because I have nothing to do) and stress (because of Results Day in the 16th Aug). It doesn’t help whenever I go out with friends and boyfriend because then we end up eating even more junk food.
I’m so ashamed of myself. I eat alone because I don’t want anyone to see how much food I have on my plate. And because I am so hungry, I eat like a pig and therefore do not want to eat in company when all I can think about is stuffing my face with food regardless of the mess I make
Food occupies my mind ALL THE TIME and it drives me crazy. When I wake up, the first thing I think about is food. So I have breakfast and count down the hours until lunchtime. After that, it’s the afternoon where I lose control. I crave sugar so will basically have a small meal, even though I don’t feel hungry. When dinner comes around, I am starving!
I hate my body shape but crave food at the same time. I have boobs and a bum and just wish that I was a size zero. It doesn’t help that all my friend s are stunning, but then again every group of friends has a person who has been whacked with the ugly stick and unfortunately, I’m that person. I’m not as brainy as A, not as pretty as B, not as confident as C, not as stylish as D and not as rich as E. When I binge, it blocks these feelings out.
I predict binge eating is going to get worse when I go to university in September. I can cook well but just feel like I am going to lose control completely.
Sorry, the post is so long, I just wanted to share my feelings and show people that they’re not alone and binge eating is a real eating disorder.