Dw i wont Aw Asma.... Dont really know what to say about this tbh idk myself :/ it's normal to feel that way, it had to happen one day or another but i promise, u'll find happiness once again and what you deserve one day it wont go forever, might take a long time depending on what type of person you are, but till then just hold on! Allah does the best, just believe in him https://youtu.be/QMwfy-4m95I