No it hasn't been like that. We have never really been on an official date. Just frolicked around casually. He has asked me out 4 times now and I would always use some bland excuse like exams, illness, family trouble etc to drive him off. By "A special date" I meant that it would be much more formal.
Thanks for your opinion guys, I really appreciate it
. he will be here in an hour or so and then we are going for our first official date. I have decided not to let him know about my insecurity beforehand. I will let him find it out when time comes. I know it sounds weird, that you don't plan on sex and that wasn't what I meant. I will let you all know if I can ever get over this insecurity