I seem to be going round and round in circles from feeling ambitious to completely flat and emotionless about my life, life's' goals and what I want to do.
I'm a young mid-twenty-something man, trying to build experience to get into the job market and land my ideal job.
However, each day is a cyclical battle with my emotions. My motivation goes up and down hour by hour. Particularly in relation to my work.
I can have periods of feeling completely out of the game, not doing anything at all for weeks and months. Then all of a sudden a burst of inspiration and energy- sometimes its acted on, other times I get so far, and hit a brick wall.
Today, I am sat here hitting another wall, frustrated and apathetic.
My mood switches so easily. I am currently also taking anti-depressant medication for anxiety/depression, and I have noticed that whenever I take it I'm more apathetic- whereas when I don't i'm edgy, agitated.
I don't know what to really do. I'm seeing a counsellor hopefully in a week or so- but what can be done in the meantime?
I feel lost in my life and what to do. What I enjoy etc.
Is it worth the hype?