please guys i need a honist opinion here and please tell me if im being alittle unfair.
I've always had realy problems with my mum. As a kid my father used to constantly stay drunk and didnt work. He also used to hit her and give verbal abuse. She left me as a child to go and work as there was no food for the family. When i was about 4 my dad stopped drinking. Yay. But my mother wasnt over the hard time he had given her (fair enough. I understand that and dont really my father as he used to do that) Anyway from that time to my early teens my mother would constanly tell me about the things my father did to her. Also everytime i would bring a topic about school she would listen for about 10 minutes and then contine about her greif, she would also forget the thing i would tell her in less than an hour. (As a kid that wasnt nice..as i was a "excited" kid and wanted other people to be involved in my excitment)
When i wasd about 12 my brother gor married (we have a big age difference). After that my mother would constanly critisize my siter-in-law infront of me and also my brother..and as always my father too. Its not that my mother doesnt care about her family. I mean she has done a LOT of things for my family. Now im a teenager (16) and my hormoes kick in..i want to be agressive/ want my own space/ my own time but she doesnt understand that. infact shes in the same room as me! i cant speek to a "guy" properly because shes alwats listening.
I've come to a certain stage were all i can do is listen to her and take in everything she has to say. I cant be alone. I spend majority of my nights crying because she forces her opinions of my brother and his wife on me. ALL I WANT TO DO IS BE ALONE!!!!!! why doesnt she get it?
I've been in and out of depression because of her and everytime she takes me to the doctor all the doc says is that this girl need space..which my mum ignores.
Im sorry because i dont know what im asking for..maybe for me to be listened to as no one ever as or to get a bit of advice on how to handle this.