Hi! So basically, last year I took a gap year because I was very unprepared for uni. I was struggling with anxiety and depression, I had no idea what to do with my life and I was coming off the back of a loss in the family. In that gap year, I volunteered at a local school, where I was eventually employed, and it changed my life. I learned a lot about the type of work I want to pursue; being a teacher. As well, I met some wonderful friends, learned a lot about myself and worked through some of my anxieties, and, I was the happiest i've been in years. In the past three weeks, leading up to going away to uni to study English, I have been working at a new school that has opened recently off the back of the first school as part of a trust. The staff there are excellent and are in the fortunate position to build up an entire new school from scratch; and they've asked if I would stay on an study to become a teacher on the job while I worked as a teaching assistant. It sounds excellent on paper but, the trouble is, that I won't be able to be a teacher for about 4 years this way, and even if I do, I won't have the same level of teaching as I would if I studied English at Uni and then did a postgraduate conversion. I feel like i'm still unsure and generally not ready for uni life, and my heart is saying that I should stay in the school, but I worry i'll lose out on the opportunity on building the foundations for my career in the future. I don't know what to do and it's kicking my depression back into place quite quickly. Any insight would be amazing.
Even more elitist than everyone thought?