I need help dealing with depression and anxiety. I'm living abroad at the moment in Germany working full time. I've had mental health issues for a large part of my life and have never really managed to deal with them effectively. I opened up to family I'm staying with and for a while I took natural antidepressants, which helped a bit, Before I came here, I had counselling during school but stopped shortly before exams. I didn't find it that helpful, but it was better than nothing. Around a year ago, I first went to the doctor and got diagnosed with it severely. Since then the severity has been lower, but I still sometimes have bad periods. Recently they've been occurring more often and it's concerning. Throughout the whole time, I've hardly opened up to my parents at all, but have friends back home who help me while I'm here as much as they can. I'm starting new work on Thursday, but still have a great deal of anxiety as the previous jobs haven't gone great and I've had bad experiences with staff during them. Does anyone have any suggestions of where I can get help while I'm here? When I return home later, I'll be working again full time to save up for uni and counselling is expensive when it's private. I don't know who best to confide in or whether there are any possible options while I'm here in relation to help, despite research. I just hope at the moment that once I've settled in my new job, it'll get better, but before then, I don't know´how long I can cope. I'd appreciate any help from anyone in relation to anything I've said here, since every bit helps, and thank you all in advance for reading this and any response you may have to help.
Should I still go?