Sorry if it's a longer story than you intended but please do spare a bit of time to read and give me any kind and honest advice you have. I am genuinely really struggling to keep myself together at this point and I literally have no one to turn to for advice, I cannot physically make a conscious decision.
So to cut the story as short as I can, I currently live with my boyfriend who I've been with just over six and a half years in total, a couple of break ups here or there like couples do ... we had a break up at the beginning of the year where he broke up with me and I moved out back into my mums house which was 200 miles away cross country... in that break up I slept with another guy and got a crush on him and a couple of months later me and my ex got back in contact, we got back together after him forgiving me and I moved in.
Bare in mind we have two cats together he kept one and I kept the other so mine had to be transported with me both times which I hated
We are now in a situation where down here I have no one other than him, I started college last week for a loan for a year and I made a few friends there and I can transfer if need be but its so much change it's unbearable.
I love my boyfriend to bits, we really do connect... but I'm living with him and his dad and I hate it and I hate the place where we live with his dad coz the amenities are completely different to what I like I'm a city girl this is a country with no night scene... I do miss my hometown and my family and friends but I love my partner.... but ATM I'm not seeing him go out and do his own things coz he doesn't wanna leave me in with his dad so he isn't feeling good about himself, and I ain't going out coz I got no contacts here so I ain't feeling good about myself
And we argue and we say about me leaving and it's for the better and we would try and make it work or we would break up but I love him so so so so much and when push comes to shove I genuinely don't want to leave.
Please help me guys, it would be so much appreciated right now