Basically its now my 2nd year at college and its been difficult...
I have had no friends since my first year and it looks like its going to be the same
this year i feel so alienated and isolated that it has become the only thing i know it
pains me when i see other people around or groups of people sit on the table next
to me it just makes me feel pathetic for not having one single persn to talk to.
I hardly ever eat or go out when in college because i feel that my weight is the
reason why i feel so negative about myself and if i get thinner people will like me
sometimes i do eat there but I eat in the toilet cubicles so people dont stare
i found the colleges counciling service deatails but im too afraid to call because
i feel like im not worth it.
one time last year some people asked me if i would sit with them because one of the girls in the group had a crush on me but i declined because i felt like i didnt
It was durind the end of my first year where i ended up cuttng my wrist due to how bad i felt but i have not done it since i just wish i knew how the people there think of me because some of them keep looking at me.
I just want to get through this is there any help anyone can sugest?
Should I still go?