The Student Room Group

Yep, think I'm depressed then.

I've always been asked if I was before and denied it, but I think it's time to accept it and try and conquer it. I'm male and at college (mods please keep this anon, I'd hate for people at my school to see this), and I've had the most depressing summer of all. The occasional call to one friend, talking to about 3 others through IM, and just lounging about at home for most of the time. But now I really think my life's gone to the ****s. I know it's a lot less depressing as some people have it, but I still am miserable and need to do something about it.

Just now I've found out I can't go on holiday with my family because I haven't had the appropriate injection and the nurse is away for a week, so my family are going without me. No regrets, no decisions to postpone, they are going ahead with it, and leaving me here, knowing I haven't been away and am quite isolated atm. I'm awaiting my AS level results and a blood result to see if there's anything wrong with me and I just think I've got no hope. No friends or hobbies. I don't do anything, but lurk. I just feel like a shadow atm, like I'm nobody. And I'm gonna feel even worse knowing my family are enjoying the sun, the resort while I'm stuck here taking care of my mother.

Is there anywhere I could go to get away? I've literally got no one to talk to and nothing I feel like doing. I'd love to learn an instrument, play a sport but I'm not confident enough on the field. I'm a lot smaller and weaker than those my age at school, so I never play sports. Is there anything I could do either? I'd love to just go away from here for a week on my own, and be away from my house, my computer, just my life. It's so dull and pointless, please any advice. :frown:
Reply 1
learn to stencil...it took up alot of my time when i was in ur position. its sorta like graffiti but it exactly. google stencil art. and get started! its really easy and ALOT of fun and most of all addictive and time consuming! dont worry man. we've all been in your position at one poitn or another. its just because you have ALOT of spare time and your mind wonders. i went thru the same thing but ALOT worse. i got insomnia because of it! stay strong buddy :smile:
Reply 2
ask a doctor to do it/go to a different doctor's surgery?!

If you dont mind me asking, why didnt you book the injections in advance?seems a bit odd
Reply 3
There's nothing to stop you learning to play an instrument or playing a sport. Perhaps you could let the teacher know beforehand that you're nervous? That way they can support you and give you any extra help. Practice makes perfect. It'll also help with your strength and stamina.

Could you go to a nearby town or city and book a hotel or b'n'b for a week?
Reply 4
It might be a bit late but what about a summer camp in this country? I know it sounds a bit 'kiddy' but I'm assuming you're 17ish and there are quite a few that take people up to that age. It'd be a chance for you to get away and do some new things - it might be too late to book but if you're interested then it's worthwhile ringing round.

Or, could you not get your injection done at another surgery, or even privately? Surely your parents are going to loose a fair bit of money if you don't go so spending a few pounds for a private injection might not be a 'waste'.
Reply 5
Yeah there are loads of placed you could go, just book a holiday on lastminute.com or something. Out of interest, why can't you go to a different surgery to get your shots? Explain the situation and register as a temporary patient and do it there; there must be a way, you've got a week to sort it out.

Plenty of sports you could do too, why not take advantage of the fact you're small for your age and do something like trampolining or gymnastics where you have to be small? You'd become really strong and flexible and that'd probably build your confidence and ability to go on to 'real' sports (i.e. a team sport on a water logged pitch)
Go to the gym all summer and get buff.

Or alternatively get a summer job, you make friends, get money to do other things and it can really help with your confidence.
Has your doctor talked to you about the possibility of anti-depressants? When I was at my lowest point with depression they helped me suppress the bad feelings enough to get my head a bit straighter and work out how to improve my life. I am actually feeling a bit like the way you have described again, so I'm planning to go away somewhere for a week or two on my own to clear my head. I think it's really important to do things like that if you're feeling in despair.
Reply 8
Here man!

Chin up kid, you'll be fine everyone gets a bit of this during the holidays mate! It's because your away from everyone you know! The ones who you would talk to on and off - talk to them more. :wink:

Also, go out for walks man, seems very trivial but it works wonders. Take some music too bro.

You'll be grand soon mate :smile:
Reply 9
I felt exactly the same many years ago.
I learnt to play the guitar.
It made my life so much better.
However, I am still depressed to some extent, but that's just me...
Reply 10
The thing is I don't want any pills from the doctor. I'd rather try and get over it naturally, as I don't think I have it that bad and I wouldn't want my family to know I've been prescribed for depression.

And about the holiday, it's definitely not happening. They have to go on Thursday because my sister starts her new job on Monday, so she needs to go this week. They've already booked, there's no chance I'll be going. I'll admit I'm very bitter about it, but I think it's the kick I needed to realise I haven't done anything this summer.

And thanks a lot for the support, all of you. It's encouraging and I'll try to find a sport or hobby I'll get into, but it's quite difficult to just find something. Trampolining for my flexibility sounds really good, but I don't think anywhere nearby would have anywhere I could practice or join a club for it. I was even interested in rock climbing, but again, same issue.
I know how you feel when you say you have no friends or hobbies. I've been stuck in the house for 4 weeks now with not a even a phone call from any of my so called friends. I'm on TSR for around 8 hours a day and my life is pretty much pointless at the moment.

Actually, I'm waiting for my AS results too and my parents are going on holidays on Friday without me. Weird.

Anyway, PM me if you need some company. =)
Reply 12
Maybe your mum will enjoy the company? Is she ill or something?
Reply 13
yeah im at uni, cant find a job and have nothing to do for the next 1 1/2 months. I feel pretty alone too, and find it difficult to make friendships - only got about 3 good friends. pm me too for some company.
Lol, I am having the same problems at the moment, my family is going away again for the second time this summer without me but oh well...
First *hugs* your life sounds a bit rubbish at the moment from what you have written.

You say that you have to talked to a few friends through IM is there no oppertunity for you to meet up at all? Even if its to go to a film, or just a bike ride or something like that, at least you would be doing something and out the house.

The holiday thing sucks ( and contray to belief this may not be your fault) just because you didn't know about the injection I find it a little off that your family didn't mention it to you...But there must be a bright side to it? You now have a bargining tool with your parents perhaps, I don't know. just try not to focus on that, and try not to get to bitter. Being bitter really isn't going to help the situation, and will probably make you feel worse.

Hmm well you are going for AS results tommorow right? Check the notice board and see if they have information on any club activities that you can join when you go back. I know it isn't immediate but its something to look forward to and a way to make new friends and pick up new skills.You will also raise your self confidence doing this, as you will have learnt something new. And it should help to aliviate the boredom.

You have to remember that you arn't nobody and that you definitly have people who care for and love you. To them you will never be just a shadow, and they see you from the outside so you must have special qualities.

Saying you want to learn and instrument, take up a sport or a hobby, go look! To learn those kinds of things you need to go find out about them from your local area. That will take you out, give you exercise and some purpose and something to be working for.

To be fair, and I feel horrid saying this, you can't sit around and wait for everything to be handed to you on a golden plate. If you really want to do something make an effort, and don't expect others to sort it out for you. I really apoligise if that hurt you, but I think you need to hear it. You know you are depressed/bored/lonley and finding it hard to have enthusiasm, so try and attempt to do something about it, instead of sitting there worrying about it, okay?

Alright I hope this helped and I wish you the best of luck.Hope your AS results come out well.
Keep us posted.
xxx