How do I forgive myself for not getting the grades I could have (and should have)?
I am so angry at myself for picking the wrong subjects (subjects that I am not good at) and then as a result having to drop one of my subjects a month before exams.
I am also so angry at myself because I know I could have got all A's if i studied harder and I should have got all A's. I am so disappointed in myself and I feel like my parents are too. As a result of my grades I probably won't be able to get into the uni I want to go to.
I know i sound stupid but the guilt and regret and the constant "what ifs" are killing me. I can't sleep, I just lie awake at night punishing myself in my head and I can't seem to move on.
I feel like my life is not going how I thought it should and I know I could have done better. I have so much guilt and regret and all I do is day dream about going back in time and doing things differently. I feel like if i did things differently I could have been so much more and achieved better things and my life would be better but now at 17 I feel like a failure.
I am dying and I just want to stop this cycle of self hate and regret and guilt but I can't seem to forgive myself.
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- 17-10-2016 03:32
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- 17-10-2016 03:52
I know how bad you feel because I have also been through the "dark" times. But no matter how regret and guilty are you now, nothing happened could change.
Just move on and seize the things that you can make a difference.
Failure is a stage of life, we have to experience it sooner or later.