Hello there,
I'm in my second year at uni on a course I enjoy, although apart from that, despite me being very lucky for what I have, I'm constantly feeling down or getting knocked back, and I really can't control it. Somebody was very rude to me today and I retaliated verbally as I didn't appreciate how they were speaking to me, I didn't even know the person, I'm still thinking about how I could have potentially handled it better, what words I should of used and how, if it's going to affect me in the future (it's probably not, but I can't convince myself). I lie in bed and my brain whizzes round constantly with worry and guilt, even though I haven't done anything. I realign my parked car constantly because I worry people will not be able to fit in behind me or infront, not get out or in. Or it's not straight. I live on my own, I have friends at uni but not enough for me to be socialising with them. But this doesn't bother me. I'd rather be on my own. I go to work, do my job, come home. I have 2 hobbies, one I do from home and the other I do out once a week. A month goes by and I feel like I'm on track and then I drop back down again ... Would appreciate any advice, thank-you.