Feel really unmotivated for next year

Next year I start my A levels, and while throughout my GCSEs I felt really motivated to work and really focused on the future, right now I really feel like I won't be able to get through them. I don't know if it's just the long break from school which is making it worse, because the last time I had any lessons was at the beginning of May, or whether how I'm feeling isn't really related that much to school at all; it's just a by-product or symptom of everything else.

Someone I was really close to moved away in mid-July, and the goodbye hit me a little hard I guess. Not many people knew how close we were, so I couldn't really talk to anyone about how I was feeling, and I went abroad to visit relatives for two weeks only a few days after it happened, so I had a lot of time to dwell on it. When I came back I just wanted some normality, but I went away for a few days again with my family, so again I ended up thinking about it even more because I couldn't do normal things and go out with friends like I could at home to take my mind off it.

However, it's not him moving away itself that has made me feel so bleurghh- I was upset at the time, but I had quite a few months to prepare for it. I think it's just because I've kept so many things to myself that I kind of feel.. I don't know, stuck in myself if that makes sense. I can't feel like everything's out in the open and when I'm down I can talk to my friends about how I feel; if I'm upset all I can do is try to work through it, but act normally around everyone else. I know it sounds so easy to just tell someone, and then my problems could be over :p:

but there's no way to bring it up and my friends have their own problems without me going on about this. I've spent so much time thinking about all of it that I'm completely sick of myself.

Reply 1

Anonymous #1

Did anyone else feel like this after their exams? Could it maybe go when I'm back at school and everything's back to normal?

Reply 2

rachd_22

Anonymous

Did anyone else feel like this after their exams? Could it maybe go when I'm back at school and everything's back to normal?

yep i kind of felt like this last year. you'll get over it once september starts. you'll be so busy you'll be forced to be motivated in order to keep up with the demanding work load.