Basically I'm close to mental breakdown. Life's stresses, alongside my own mental health concerns has become this insurmountable dark cloud that I can't seem to shift.
I'm in therapy (however on the NHS), and while it helps in the moment, I quickly find I revert back to a depressed state. I've learned very little about myself while in therapy and therapist seems to want to wrap up our sessions very soon as they're time limited. I can't say I'm impressed with the standard of mental health provision in national health but that's always been the case in our current times. Underfunded due to austerity cuts.
I've had better experiences while going privately with former therapist back home, however, currently I can't afford to do that now. I'm also on mediation and see the GP every few weeks.
I'm experiencing stress from my current working life, bickering colleagues, spiteful horrible employer, and just toxic. Similarly, I'm experiencing residual anger about my former boss whom was a nightmare.
She was scheming and manipulative, had a long line of disgruntled employees in her wake, pushed them out, rewrote job ads to stifle internal candidates out of their jobs/readvertise roles, increased workload and more recently pushing my mother out of her home (company owned), increases rent, and generally making her I'll.
She's signed off, doctor knows but not a lot she can do. Said she can take to tribunal but too tired. No more fight left. I fantasise about catching the next train and making her suffer (former boss).
I'm stressed out, depressed, worried, can't sleep and I'm stressed out about everything. My own living situation and everything.
I envy the moneyed classes, the state and largely the government which isn't sticking up for workers rights sufficiently enough. Too many legal loopholes. We've had to suffer all our lives working for *****y employers that exploit workers, pay them **** all and they get to pull the strings Whenever.