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Feeling depressed.

I'm a straight A student to apply for Cam this September. I turned 18 a couple of days ago and i know i shouldnt be feeling this way, but I am.
I just feel like curling up in bed and not waking up. I try to bring me back to my sense, I keep telling myself that I dont have any major problems , that i should be grateful to be healthy, but the feeling wont go away.
I feel lonely as im losing my friends. They are all in committed relationships but ive been alone for a while now, never finding the right person to be with, or just right people not wanting to be with me (?)
I feel betrayed by my friends though i know that it is inevitable that being in a serious relationship bf will come first.. I miss the intimacy of a relationship, having someone to call up late at night. I miss it so much that It hurts to think of it.
Im the only one of my friends who havent had sex. I feel somehow marked you know? Im not ugly, but Im not stunnigly beautiful either. Im just plain ordinary me.
I met a guy these past few days. Met him again yesterday and asked me out but I couldnt make it so we said we'd go today, and he hasnt called. I feel such a loser as i was actually excited about this guy. Im just too romantic for this world or good things just dont happen to me.
Im confused about my degree. I have passed 6AS levels with A but i dont know what to do with my life. I feel ive lost my identity. I dont know what i love anymore. And i have to have my application ready within 6 weeks and everything is such a mess in my head.
I just wish someone could take away the loneliness.

Reply 1

Ang|ophi|e

You're not alone. :hugs:

I'm an A student, one of the best in my year, yet I too feel the pressure of handling the work. You need to take a step back and live each day one at a time. This is a big year for you which I understand can be very stressful, but if you stress too much it will affect your grades. Just relax and take time out of the day just to chill and take a break from the hard work. As for relationships, there is nothing wrong with being the only virgin in your group. Being in a relationship can make you feel better but it can also reflect on your grades in a negative manner. There should be a balance. So stop stressing and enjoy the finer things in life. Things will get better soon. :smile:

Reply 2

I_am_the_mob

I completely understand, I will be applying for Cam too but I get depressed a lot
People will want you! Finding the right people at this age is hard so don't worry you will have a relationship soon
Not having sex because you haven't found the right person is the right thing to do
Your friends are still around, they are just preoccupied
You have a chance to find yourself without a relationship and truly be individual so take it
When you go to uni you can meet new people and have fun
I doubt Cam wants to here aboot being half of a long term relationship, they want you

Reply 3

prettygreeneyes99

Everyone feels down for no particular reason at some point :smile:

I know sometimes if Im generally just down something little that normally wouldnt bother me effects me hugely, just try and do something you enjoy that will lift you out of the mood you're in... oh and well done on the 6 A's by the way!