You sound quite isolated from the sounds of your post and I know the closet is a very lonely place. You sound like you want gay friends but the ones you've seen don't really appeal to you. Where are you meeting gay people? At your uni there should be a LGBT group. There will be friendly, like minded people there and I just know that you will feel much better about yourself (there are some things that you don't feel comfortable talking about with straight people). Whatever you do, don't go making friends in gay bars or clubs. Often the music is too overpowering, the atmosphere can be intimidating and it requires an extroverted, confident character to make friends there.