Alone for new year again Watch
Here I am, yet again, finishing the year as I started it, alone and miserable.
Granted I was asked if I was out tonight by someone from work, but this afternoon..it takes me days if not weeks to psych myself up to go out somewhere due to my social anxiety, but not only that, but costs so much to get into anywhere tonight, and a taxi home would be about £40-50 which I can't afford living in the middle of nowhere, so I had to say no again.
So they are all out drinking and socialising, while im sat here online again feeling miserable for myself..
Anyone else feel so conflicted like this? Wanting to go out, yet not wanting too at the same time?!
Happy new year!
- Political Ambassador
I'm always alone for new years, sure I miss the companionship but truth is I really can't be arsed going out. Paying a fortune for entry to be squashed in a sweatbox bar with overpriced drinks doesn't appeal in the slightest. Even if I did have friends I'd probably say no.
to ease the pain,listen to Mike Posner Ibiza.
One of the lyrics goes summat like:
"You don't really wanna step off that rollercoaster in All Alone." Basically saying there's a depressing comedown after a wild night out (if that's even what he said lol but that's how I interpreted it haha). It's fun to go out but you dont wanna hav alcohol poisoning like me mate. I'm eating chicken liver right now because I dont wanna die from rekking mine x lol
*ok. Wowo. Reading this back and realising I've no idea what I'm on about sorry