I'm an MA history student at a top ten Russell Group university. I graduated with a First and top of my year. However, the MA is proving physically and mentally exhausting. I find myself continually crying, overwhelmed by the sheer volume and intensity of work-ahead of me.
To contextualise, my university changed the structure of the MA course for 2016/17, yet failed to update its assessment criteria until after we had already accepted our places. They dramatically changed the requirements of the degree and changed the goal posts from writing 6000 words each term, to 12,000, on top of our thesis. None of this was explained before we began, and module pages were still being updated a week before our arrival.
With great difficulty, and a lot of tears, I was able to complete my term one courses. I receive the results on Thursday and I truly believe this will be a deal breaker as to where or not I continue. Of course I want to get an MA, but at this moment, the prospect of repeating everything I've already done AND more is simply overwhelming. Towards the end of last term I was struggling to complete simple tasks like shower or eat. Having enjoyed a restful Christmas period followed by many tears before my return to uni, I feel like I may slip back into these bad habits.
I dont want to leave; I have a boyfriend of three years here and I am holding down two jobs I love. However, I am so done with academia and it's affect on my mental health. I have incredibly supportive parents and friends, I am only putting pressure on myself.
I just cannot bear the environment anymore. Over summer I completed a work placement within my chosen career sector and absolutely loved it, which has only made me more restless and anxious to leave. I am afraid however, that withdrawing for my masters halfway in order to pursue further employment will not be so easy, and will leave me with unexplained gaps to explain to employees. I am still working two jobs and volunteering at a major London museum but I don't know if that is enough to convince employers I'm not unreliable.
I hope to see the university counselling services asap, but any advice from others in a similar situation would be great!
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- 09-01-2017 18:29
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- 22-01-2017 23:26
Could have sworn I replied to this the other day sorry! This sounds horrible, from all angles really. The main thing I'd say is health comes first, and no course, job or anything else is worth sacrificing that. Without your health you can't do anything else. You're seeing uni support services which is great, talk to them and see what they suggest and your GP too. Personally i'd say it's worth dropping out but it's obviously your decision! Employment-wise I wouldn't say there's too much of an issue, only six month gap even ignoring your jobs/volunteering (wow you must be busy ) and they'd struggle to find a graduate without nearly that a lot of the time now. Good luck whatever you decide, really hope it all works out okay!