My confidence was destroyed by my "best friend"/"girlfriend"Watch
But then again, it's disrespectful of her to judge based on one moment of intercourse.
I'm 18 and have only had sex once. I'll admit that, though it is a little embarrassing in comparison to my friends. However, there is a really big reason for this. When I lost my virginity, it was with someone that had been my best friend for a long time. After a long time in the friendzone, she told me that she liked me and that she wanted us to be together. Bearing in mind we were both virgins, it kinda shocked me that she started asking me about sexual things just a week into the relationship, however I let it pass. When I saw her after I came back from a one week holiday, we sat together on her bed, like we always did, and suddenly she started taking off her shirt. I was shocked, as obviously I'd never seen a girl naked at all or anything. Then, she took off all her clothes and asked me to have sex with her. No foreplay, no nothing. Just sex. I was really nervous and kinda in shock which sounds pathetic I know but I was shocked at why she was being like this. She told me that if I didn't then she'd be really unhappy with me, so I did it. I was so nervous I didn't even reach climax even after two hours. I'm a guy btw if you haven't worked that out. The day after, she messaged me saying she was having problems and didn't want to talk for a while and that it was my fault. She didn't talk to me for the most soul destroying week of pain of my life, I genuinely loved this girl, and when she did reply she told me it was over. We haven't spoken since. Now, I'm super nervous about any form of physical contact with girls and haven't touched a girl in any way since August. I really hope someone has any advice for me on how to become myself again and just to read this so I can get it off my chest. Thank you
Not all girls are the same maybe communicate next time and say you are not confident as its your first time.