i can't wait to move out!

Can't wait either.

My mother is a neurotic individual. Of course, I still care about her, but to be frank, she's not a nice person. Anti-social, jealous, tight with money, negative, self-pitying, attention seeking and generally pretty messed up. So many arguments have been caused over the last 5-7 years because of the way she is. My father is much different. Although I don't like taking sides, nor listening to the remarks they make about each other, I do find him the better person. He's far more social, friendly, motivated, hard-working, determined etc and he's gone on to start a seemingly blissful new relationship. However, he is pretty cynical and can be rather patronising too. Although I think he just does so out of care.

First 14 or so years of my life were blissful, but then my Mother's insecurities exploded, and there was so much arguing between her and my Dad, leading to a messy drawn out divorce. Ever since, whilst struggling with the usual teenage fare myself, argument after argument after argument has been started over such tiny things. My mother argues for the sake of arguing basically. After college, I needed a year out to sort my head out a little, and over that time I just counted down the days till I could be free.

Looking forward to living in a city and being away from this dull village for the first time ever, where nothing ever happens. Where the same faces (some I want to forget forever) still skulk around. Looking forward to the independence and challenges. Looking forward to getting away from mindless arguing, bickering and negativity.

Spent £150 today getting fully kitted out. Everything is sorted in terms of finance, accommodation and what I need to be taking. I have a budget and itinerary drawn up, which puts my mind at rest. Just full of pure excitement and the prospect of making a whole new fresh start.

One week to go!!

anybody else can't wait? my home is a warzone!!! one argument after the other, i spend a fortune feeding myself anyway cos the rents can't be fussed doing proper shopping,cooking,cleaning etc.even the chair i'm sitting on now in my room is an old dining chair and the more time i spend on it my spine surely twists/turns/rotates/chews itself up and thats probably why my shoulder has been aching for days.

plus i have en-suite accomodation,ah i can't wait to see the day when i have my own toilet and shower to use,maybe even an actual toilet roll holder,could be a mirror and i wont' have to boil water in the kettle when i want to shave or wash my face,not that i live in a poor house right now my rents just turn the heating off when they don't use it,the bathroom is also brand new with shiny marble type floors so when you spill something nothing happens it just stays there but theres also a pile of towels in the corner slumped on the floor which nobody washes so i can clean it up with that but i digress!...

anybody else feel the same way? being told haha when you move out you will surely perish under your own feeble actions! how hard it will be? despite having a fat wad of loan money,getting a job and a bajillion people in the same situation.

end of rant.

Sometimes one just has to grit one's teeth and say "Yes parental unit"

Aw i'm going to miss my family! I left it a bit late to leave home - i'm 21 - and that makes it all the worse.