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    Hi, this is going to sound really wingy/ungrateful/pathetic but its really bothering me at the moment.

    Increasingly, I'm really not liking my life, its not that my life is particularly bad, I mean I honestly have so much to be grateful for and there are a lot of people out there who have worse lives than me. But its almost like I'm looking at my life from colored lenses, despite all the good things I can't help to focus on the bad. I just keep ruminating over all the bad things that have happened in my life, all the horrible people who have stabbed me in the back and it gets me really upset; I feel like I haven't done anything with my life. I'm very socially awkward and I hate myself for it. I'm not particularly good at anything. I'm not close to anyone and I'm scared to get close to anyone, I have nothing meaingful in my life, I can't pass my driving test, I'm just such a waste of space.

    I just feel like I'm constantly the extra person, who everyone probably wouldn't notice if I wasn't here. All my friends are super close and then theres just me. I'm just there. I'm the black sheep in my family and none of them understand me. My mother just wants me to be someone I'm not and they all think I am someone who I am not, they think I am a horrible person, maybe because I am.

    I just don;t see the point anymore in anything. Whatever I try hard at fails, no matter how much I try to change myself in the past, people have continued to treat me like the extra person or have walked all over me/hurt me. I'm never good enough for anyone. I think I'm depressed. I've lost all interest in everything, I do things because I'm supposed to do them, uni, work even hobbies, I dont enjoy anything, everything even socialising has become such a chore (to the point where I've thought about getting a mini fridge so I can avoid my housemates). I just honestly don't see the point anymore. It makes me sad because I see so many people really enjoying uni and taking up loads of opportunities to do all these different things and I've never been so miserable. I've been in uni for two years now and I'm just not enjoying my life. I haven't for a long time now it feels. I dont feel like I have anyone to talk to, because I feel like people are going to think I'm attention seeking or being pathetic. I dunno I just hate life. I really wish I'd never been born
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    Hi, this is going to sound really wingy/ungrateful/pathetic but its really bothering me at the moment.

    Increasingly, I'm really not liking my life, its not that my life is particularly bad, I mean I honestly have so much to be grateful for and there are a lot of people out there who have worse lives than me. But its almost like I'm looking at my life from colored lenses, despite all the good things I can't help to focus on the bad. I just keep ruminating over all the bad things that have happened in my life, all the horrible people who have stabbed me in the back and it gets me really upset; I feel like I haven't done anything with my life. I'm very socially awkward and I hate myself for it. I'm not particularly good at anything. I'm not close to anyone and I'm scared to get close to anyone, I have nothing meaingful in my life, I can't pass my driving test, I'm just such a waste of space.

    I just feel like I'm constantly the extra person, who everyone probably wouldn't notice if I wasn't here. All my friends are super close and then theres just me. I'm just there. I'm the black sheep in my family and none of them understand me. My mother just wants me to be someone I'm not and they all think I am someone who I am not, they think I am a horrible person, maybe because I am.

    I just don;t see the point anymore in anything. Whatever I try hard at fails, no matter how much I try to change myself in the past, people have continued to treat me like the extra person or have walked all over me/hurt me. I'm never good enough for anyone. I think I'm depressed. I've lost all interest in everything, I do things because I'm supposed to do them, uni, work even hobbies, I dont enjoy anything, everything even socialising has become such a chore (to the point where I've thought about getting a mini fridge so I can avoid my housemates). I just honestly don't see the point anymore. It makes me sad because I see so many people really enjoying uni and taking up loads of opportunities to do all these different things and I've never been so miserable. I've been in uni for two years now and I'm just not enjoying my life. I haven't for a long time now it feels. I dont feel like I have anyone to talk to, because I feel like people are going to think I'm attention seeking or being pathetic. I dunno I just hate life. I really wish I'd never been born
    There are people here who I'm sure would notice you :console:
    Tbh, this all sounds a lot like me I've managed to get over it a fair bit to the point that I'm still very similar but I see things in a bit of a more positive light.

    I think one of the key things is trying to do what you love, and if you don't know what that is, then experimenting with different hobbies, for example, would be a good idea around it.

    If you are finding that difficult, I'd suggest trying to pinpoint the reason(s) for you feeling this way. That'll help you decide what path to take from there.

    I could say more but I think those are the most important things to attempt first. If you want to PM me to vent or ask for help or a general chat, feel free
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    This sounds a bit like how I am also feeling at the moment. Like you just want to be alone. You make up excuses not to see some people. I am trying to change my life, for the better. Making plans for the future. Just remember genuine friends would understand what you are going through. And would try there best to help you.

    As Matrix said maybe trying new hobbies would be a good idea? Maybe if you like art, music or photography? Where you can express yourself.

    Try to think of the negatives and how you can overcome them. It's hard, I understand. Talking to people can help a great deal.
    Hope maybe that helped
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    Its exactly what i feel now Im so depressed now and think that im a big LOSER. I hate it, i always avoid negativity but i cant help but think of it. I hate my life I dont know where to go and who to talk to. it feels like everything is falling apart. It hurts. really, really hurts. I feel you bro and i am very sad right now.
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
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    Hi, this is going to sound really wingy/ungrateful/pathetic but its really bothering me at the moment.

    Increasingly, I'm really not liking my life, its not that my life is particularly bad, I mean I honestly have so much to be grateful for and there are a lot of people out there who have worse lives than me. But its almost like I'm looking at my life from colored lenses, despite all the good things I can't help to focus on the bad. I just keep ruminating over all the bad things that have happened in my life, all the horrible people who have stabbed me in the back and it gets me really upset; I feel like I haven't done anything with my life. I'm very socially awkward and I hate myself for it. I'm not particularly good at anything. I'm not close to anyone and I'm scared to get close to anyone, I have nothing meaingful in my life, I can't pass my driving test, I'm just such a waste of space.

    I just feel like I'm constantly the extra person, who everyone probably wouldn't notice if I wasn't here. All my friends are super close and then theres just me. I'm just there. I'm the black sheep in my family and none of them understand me. My mother just wants me to be someone I'm not and they all think I am someone who I am not, they think I am a horrible person, maybe because I am.

    I just don;t see the point anymore in anything. Whatever I try hard at fails, no matter how much I try to change myself in the past, people have continued to treat me like the extra person or have walked all over me/hurt me. I'm never good enough for anyone. I think I'm depressed. I've lost all interest in everything, I do things because I'm supposed to do them, uni, work even hobbies, I dont enjoy anything, everything even socialising has become such a chore (to the point where I've thought about getting a mini fridge so I can avoid my housemates). I just honestly don't see the point anymore. It makes me sad because I see so many people really enjoying uni and taking up loads of opportunities to do all these different things and I've never been so miserable. I've been in uni for two years now and I'm just not enjoying my life. I haven't for a long time now it feels. I dont feel like I have anyone to talk to, because I feel like people are going to think I'm attention seeking or being pathetic. I dunno I just hate life. I really wish I'd never been born
    Hi there I'd definitely consider seeing your GP about this. They're likely to be able to help you in figuring things out, and may also refer you for other treatment like therapy. I'd also consider speaking to your uni's student support services about this, and seeing if they could maybe provide some counselling for you. It could really help having someone to touch base with regularly and having someone to talk about everything with. You might also consider posting in the mental health section of this website, and maybe posting in the mental health support society thread there? It's such a supportive and helpful section, and you could really get a lot of good advice there too
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    I read your post, I want you to hang in there. You have probably heard all of these things before anyway but please read.
    I'm 12, I have severe depression and anxiety too, I have been feeling like I don't wan't to die, but I dont like living at the same time. Do not kill yourself, there are so many things out there that can and WILL help. I may not know you, but I beleive that you CAN stay alive, please.
    Have you tried seeking help or anything similar recently, I think it would be a very good thing. It sounds like the people in your life aren't helping you very well, Have you tried talking to your mother or anyone that can be close? I know I'm not professional or anything but I would really like to help you. I care :heart:
 
 
 
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