Hi everyone,
This is a long one so bare with me please !
I've been feeling unhappy at university for quite a while. I'm in my first year and have never really felt settled here. I suffer from quite bad anxiety (which has only got worse since being here) and there are days when I will not leave my flat because of this and I miss lectures/seminars etc. I also am finding the drinking culture very hard to cope with, as I seem to have ended up with a group of friends who want to go drinking every day or 2 (before and after lectures??) which I'm not a huge fan of and I'm finding it increasingly hard to socialise. I don't really have any very close friends who I can talk to about things here and feel quite lonely. I am also 4 hours away from home and on a campus uni making me feel more isolated
I am currently a course where I have 8 contact hours a week. I have found this to be increasingly hard as I know I would rather be doing something much more hands on. I find the lectures uninspiring and don't feel like I am getting very much out of my course in a whole, which is a shame because the university I am at has a very good reputation for the subject and I thought having a smaller number of contact hours would suit me better.
A slight issue is that as housing started so early, I had a house and a group to live with for second year by November/December time which I am a bit worried about packing in as I feel bad for my other future housemates. (Also worried about future accommodation fees etc)
My parents want me to come home as they say they are worried about me and don't like the idea of me stuck on campus feeling anxious and sad and only going to lectures a very small amount of the time but my boyfriend is against the idea which is not helping me make a decision...
This is just some of the reasons why I want to leave, sorry it's a bit rambly but does anyone have any insight they might be able to give me? thanks!