When I was younger it was predicted I would never achieve anything would never be independent and self sufficient. I was utterly written off due to my autism.
Because of this I always felt that if I went on benefits I would just be fulfilling that prophecy. So i would rather work a min wage job and be bullied and hate my life then commit to that.
Been on the doll would be seriously bad for my self esteem.
However min wage jobs are not nec because I can always turn to online poker to support myself if I need to I have a statistically significant data set from the past which proves I can do it and have done so previously for significant periods.
However Poker is not really a great way to live firstly the income is not steady some days I could make £500 or £320 etc and then the next day I could lose 200-500 over the month it averages out to a reasonable salary but it kinda sucks and is stressful. You make a few hundred and go wow if I made a few hundred every day I would make like £6000-£10000k a month.
unfortunately it does not work like that, my most exceptional daily performance was £13000 but I do stress that was an extreme outlier and definitely not typical.
Then their is the ugly side all the degenerates who have gambling problems are losing their house wife kid or heading to ruin, Most losers are losing what they can afford and don't fit in to this category, however their is still a significant proportion who do have problems.
You have to be comfortable with the fact in yourself that your money comes from others ruin, and whilst a lot of me people still say that is not my responsibility or problem etc and they would lose it to someone else if not me all valid points, it still does not feel great.
I kind of feel like a predator doing that hence I decided to put my savings and winnings etc towards gaining education in maths and attaining a degree, To get a stable Job which does not rely on feeding of other peoples ruin.
I am grateful that unlike many other autistic people I always have a source of income if I can not gain employment, and know this is always something to fall back on, and a maths degree would only help exploit that further. However its not really what i want to do.
Some people just don't want to feel like they are exploiting to society/ not contributing to society I guess.