Hi everyone,
Yes, I am writing this at nearly 4am. I've been awake all night, worrying about my meeting tomorrow at Uni.
This meeting is for Supportive Monitoring, where I have to show the lecturer all of my work I have done so far for my projects (studying graphic design). I have anxiety disorder and am seeing my doctor about it. The university already knows about it as I had a meeting with them this morning (Tuesday morning!). The lecturer I'm supposed to be seeing knows too since she was in the meeting.
I have already gone to my first supportive monitoring meeting before easter break, and she said that she wanted to see a little more work in my projects when she next sees me (which is tomorrow).
All over easter break, I haven't done any work at all - I've had no motivation to actually do any work, have been struggling to get out of bed let alone getting dressed, and I have been keeping myself awake every night worrying about things.
I just can't go into the meeting tomorrow, not with the same work I had shown her last time, with no improvement. I was going to just not go in and not give them a reason why (since she said to me before that not a lot people turn up for their own supportive monitoring meeting), but I don't want to waste their time waiting for me to show up. I'm thinking about emailing her in the morning about me being absent for it, but I don't know what to say.
I would be really grateful if anyone could help me with the email! I want to let them know that I'm having anxious thoughts about it and that I had a small panic attack earlier too.
Thank you if anyone responds!