Hey guys, I just wanted some advice on what to do and if there is a chance for me to get back with her and I apologize if this going to be a long post. I'll try to keep this as easy to read as possible. ( sorry for bad English too ).
I recently just broke up with my Girlfriend and it's been 2 months since she broke up with me. We go to different universities but it's only an hour away from each other. We've been best friends for 3 years and been going out for a year and a half but she decided to break it off with me because I was lacking effort and attention. I asked her how I was lacking but she said she was just unhappy with me , I wasn't the same person she loved and there was nothing left to fix it. I accepted as it is but I told her I still love her and I still care but she still dumped me.
The next few days , I found out she cheated during our relationship through a letter I found on her email that was still logged into my phone coincidentally. The letter suggested that she was praising the guys efforts and the things they've done together ( such as going out on dates and kissing ) etc. I decided to tell some friends about what happened and I didn't confront her about it. She had a past that involved her cheating with her ex boyfriend.
After a month, she messaged me asking for another talk and that she wasnt expecting me to do certain thing I was doing. The day we talked , she was mad at me for ruining her reputation but I said it wasn't my intention to and I was sorry. I asked her why she cheated on me but she told me she didn't. I told her about the letter I found but she implied it was a goodbye letter to me. I called her out on it saying none of the letter contents suggest it's for me. She then starts to break down crying and she kept saying sorry and saying how she messed up again. She said sorry but she said that I changed as a person. I told her i was hurt from what she's done. I told her I forgive her for what's she's done but she then to me that there are other better girls out there besides her and that she was not the only girl out there. We "decided" to end it as "friends" because we were in a party with a number of our friends included so we didn't want to make things awkward.
The next few days , she messaged at me saying how mad she was at me of how her mother found out about the cheating and that there's no way of me and her getting back together and how she keeps hearing rumours about her. We had another talk again settling the rumours involved her even though I didn't intend to make her look bad .
Two days ago, we decided to talk again but this time I asked to talk to express about my feelings and what could have been done to prevent our break up. I've told her things such as what could have saved our relationship by talking what she felt and should have told me properly that she was unhappy. She said that I drove her to the point that she had to cheat to get what she wanted and that I wasn't giving her want she wants. Even though I believe I still did nothing wrong, I never physically abused her, never cursed at her If she did something wrong and I never treated her badly. She believes I took her for granted and that it's not her fault alone. She did end up saying sorry for hurting me but she then she ended up saying things such as regretting have sex with me, and that she told me that she doesn't believe in fairy tales but she believes that I should change to be a more "boyfriend type" of guy, even though she said there wasn't problems with me as a person.
I personally want her back but I don't know if there's a chance of me and her getting back together.
( Thanks again for hearing me out if you manage to read all of this. )