Found out a girl hooked up with their crush from when they were 15.I feel upset. :(

I met her in my foreign language class. I could tell that they were in probably in love by the way they were smiling and sending texts and chatting on the phone. I asked them if they had an Instagram, they said yeah and found out it's true.




I feel upset because they're taken but they were so perfect and seemed like they'd be really fun to be around. But it's also upsetting because I'm really jealous of the girl, because they found someone already and they're younger than me (They're 18, I'm 21) and I feel so behind with relationships.

There's also the bigger issue of me being too preoccupied and not having any real friends since I was 14. I feel like I have to try so hard and bend over backwards just to become like other people after I've been isolated for so long. (I was addicted to the Internet, so I had all the dopamine I needed- so I felt as though making friends was pointless- and unlike most people I never felt lonely tbh)

It takes so much effort but the payoff won't come until much later down the line. Other people just seem so- ahead. To finally find someone that I really love and trust and then they're taken, just- ugh. One side of me wants to keep on going ahead and keep opening up to people and the other side just wants to give up and not talk to ANYONE, just like before.

So my question: How do I move on and find someone else? (I'm not sure they could ever be as good as them, because like I said, they were pretty much perfect) How do become as good as other people and get some people skills? I don't most people realize just how hard is to after not talking to people since forever.

I have some free time over the summer, so it gives me some time to work on things? What would you suggest I do?

Also, do you think I should ask the girl about this? Not really about the boyfriend thing but about how to find friends/girlfriends. I know it's a kind of a weird question to ask and they might not even know the answer since it comes so naturally to them.

Honestly with that jealous heart of yours, it will take you longer to find true love.

You're there watching other people's business rather than handling your own.

Mind your business.