I dont know where to start, my life just seems so pointless. Its a long story so im sorry! i have no friends because all my old gd friends have become ppl i dnt want 2 hang about wiv i.e. sleepin around n gettin a reputation, gttin bladdered every weekend etc etc i dnt mind goin out but im younger than every1 so cant get served n then they stop servin me wen ppl start buyin me drinks so basically cant have a social life till im 18. tried goin out wi m8s for meals, bowlin, cinemas etc etc bt they never ask me so i jus end up askin n then taggin along as if i shouldnt really be there. i just feel like everyone thinks im weird n different. i dont fit in wiv ppl n i hate it.
my bf makes me so happy when im with him and now hes gone away to uni so im missin him n feel rli alone. i dont wanna be talkin to him all the time cos e needs to spend tym settling in n i know that so just gotta keep everything to myself. iv tried lookin for new hobbies to keep me busy but they r too expensive n i cnt afford that. i jus wana give up n dnt see the point in gettin up in the mornin, cant even look forward to nefin cos then im goin to uni next yr wen im guna b even more alone in a social situation which makes me panic, i have small panic attacks wen im in situations like that n even then im guna b away from all my family n im guna b so alone.
i cnt b bothered wiv nefin nemore, iv gt nuffin left! sorry for this jus wanted to ryt it sumwher to see if ne1 feels the same x x fanx 4 readin