i just miss him SO SO SO much

a couple of months back, i quite randomly met this guy and we went out a couple of times. then he had to go back to england [where he lives- he was just here on holiday] and we kept in touch. sometimes we speak on the phone and we chat on msn almost every day. we just get on so well and i just miss him SO much.
our friendship is purely that, we are not and will not be involved as anything more [he is gay]
he was supposed to be coming out this month but he cant, and then at xmas, but he cant then either [he has a new job]
i just hate it cos i miss him like hell! he is one of my closest friends and i love him to bits and just want to see him!!
its just not fair!! [i know how stupid thats sounds, but whatever]
sighhhh. this is a pretty useless post. but i just miss him. and i want to see him SO much.
i'm sorry that its so stupid.
i dont know what advice i expect people to give me.
i just miss him.

Reply 1

qubog

that really sucks. i sort of know why you posted because you wanted to get it off your chest. it helps to know that other people have been through the same thing - i don't know where they all are tonight though :s-smilie:

Keep yourself busy and hope you feel better soon OP

Reply 2

sparkly_woo

;console; aw.
could you maybe not go and visit him? or maybe work out a time when he can get some time off work?
on the bright side. its amazing you have such a close friend like that :biggrin:

Reply 3

sokissme

he can only come out after xmas :frown:

and i cant go over there until next summer i think.
and it sucks cos my parents think that cos we are not goin out as boyfriend and girlfriend, it shouldnt be so important that we see eachother!!
but it is important!! cos i miss him :frown:

it pisses me off that my parents seem to think that it is stupid that we are friends :frown:

and they act like i am just being ridiculous by missing him.

Reply 4

sparkly_woo

So have him come out after christmas, and you go out there next summer.. and go from there.
Knowing when you're going to see him may help make you feel better about it, and when you chat you can make plans and such.
Then between Christmas and Summer if you get another chance to see each other for a few days or something do that.
As for your parents, having him visit may help them realise that your friendship really is this important to you.