Don't want to work

I want to want to but I don't want to. I don't want to be unemployed but at the same time hate the thought of being tied to a commitment. One of the main reasons is I used to have panic attacks at college and even though I battled the anxiety everyday it got me nowhere except into a job that I have to do the same again. Im due to start in November and am worrying about the training day. I can imagine myself sat there feeling crap and wanting to get out like I was at college. Being brave and sitting though it doesn't seem to do anything though it doesn't build up my confidence as the next day im exactly the same. Theres nothing I can do about it im just naturally anxious and have tried councelling and have been shown ways to cope with it but I really don't want to cope with it all my life just for the sake of being normal and fitting into society. Even when I go shopping etc and go into a shop the environment makes me feel not as alert as when im at home.

I don't know what to do :confused:

Reply 1

zzzzzoe

id probably say wait till you feel comfortable in college and THEN take a risk and get a job :smile:

Reply 2

Leigh.

What type of job is it?

Reply 3

Rutter knows best!

i find working enjoyable, i think i don't do it to fit into society more to earn money, to fill x number of hours in the day, give me a reason to get out of bed, meet new people.

if i did'nt have a job i could see my self getting very depressed.

Reply 4

silverbolt

most people hate working - i know i do.

but its somethign we have to do im afraid

Reply 5

Joel103

Some jobs you hate, some you love, I used to work at tesco it would throw a downer over the entire day, like not look forward to it one bit, best bet is to just get on with it, don't think about it.