Anon because my best friend's boyfriend uses this website...ALOT. And knows my username from other sites.
I'm 18 years old. I've known my best friend (girl) since I was 7.
She's had a long-term boyfriend since she was 14 and he now goes to university quite far away. She's actually partially-engaged to him.
Anyways, ever since the age of 13, I've fancied my best friend. I'm pretty sure I fell in love with her and I've been hiding my feelings for her ever since...I've had girlfriends and stuff, however at the back of my mind I KNOW I love her
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Anyways, since sixth form started, me and her have been getting very sexual. Although its jokey-sexual, its still quite sexual and involves a lot of touching underneath tables and hugging, touching one anothers arses etc...
We ended up going out on a friend-date last night and after a nice meal and lots of fun, we ended up sneaking into my house.
We had sex.
I feel awful. What happens now? She feels she made a mistake...but I thought it was...great.
HELP. I really think I love her...and she might love me back? But what if she does? Is this relationship OK?