for a good couple of years now ive had problems with anxiety and depression and an ED, and ive had a psychiatrist, although about a year 1/2 ago i stopped going, once id gotten over my eating problems, because i didnt think it was helping.
although im much happier these days, (i dont worry as much about the future or my college work, im in a great relationship and i have a social life), i find that i always have something to worry about or something stopping me from being totally happy. i do still have problems with my family at home, i dont think theyve ever quite forgiven me for having those problems a couple of years ago, and as a result im not close to them.
ive just found that i cant really stop myself from worrying and getting myself down, and it gets in the way a lot. although i have friends etc. i dont really feel comfortable talking to people about my problems.. but i think that i could talk to someone i didnt know, i.e. a councillor? about them. i dont want my parents or friends or boyfriend to know im unhappy sometimes, i feel too attention seeking.. although i think it will be inevitable theyll find out sooner or later, because i get panic attacks sometimes (quite embarrassing..).
i was just wondering if anyone could suggest anything? id take medication or id see a councillor, but i wouldnt want them to find out! most of all i just want to be happy really and move on, i dont want to get into the same situation i was in a while ago.
thanks.