I've been debating asking this for ages because I think it's kind of stupid but I've been feeling really insecure about it lately. Basically, I am a girl (16) and don't consider myself to be manly/butch or anything but most of my hobbies are more 'boyish'. Namely aviation, I want to be a helicopter pilot in the RAF and am really into aircraft, engineering, that kind of thing. I'm also involved in shooting (with air cadets), sports like running and rowing, science and just anything outdoorsy really.
I've actually been really wanting to learn about motor racing and F1 lately, but haven't done anything about it because I genuinely feel I'm not girly enough.
Normally this is no issue, no one has any problem with anything I do and nor should they really. However, I'm loosely looking to get into a relationship and for some reason am just really worried that most boys will be put off by my interests. The insecurity I feel about this knocks my confidence, which I try to maintain but trying to be confident makes me feel even more like a raging tomboy, so it's a vicious cycle. I'm a bit of a mess atm lmao.
Again, I still consider myself fairly feminine and don't have many problems with my overall attractiveness itself. I wear makeup fairly often, dress either neutral or more girly, not 'laddish'. In some social circles I'm considered 'one of the guys' but not generally. I'm in an awkward position torn between wanting to find a boyfriend and just wanting have boys as good friends. Ehhhhhhhhh help, this is so lame but it's been on my mind a lot