Do I sound like I have depression?

Watch
ironandbeer2
Badges: 15
Rep:
?
#1
Report Thread starter 2 years ago
#1
I currently have a job. I am never off sick and always on time; indeed much of the time when I turn up (generally 10-15 mins before) I just start straight away. I do all tasks asked of me and get everything done during the day. I have no emotional breakdowns through the day and must look like any other worker, I assume i.e. maybe some good elements to me, some bad, but yeah...nothing special.

After a long time of having a really awful sleep pattern, staying up late and getting up late, it's now am far more normal schedule. Even when I had the bad sleep pattern, I was never staying in bed due to not wanting to get up - I was just tired. I never want to stay in bed because I feel sad; it's the opposite - I want to be up too much, and this has led to me losing a lot of sleep in the past.

I take a great interest in things such as education, politics, the world etc.

Here's the thing though - I have no physical or mental energy. Sure I said about doing the job, I can do that as I need to and I get through it with instructions from a manager. But as for actually sorting my life out? No chance. I can't concentrate, just writing this post is totally taking it out of me, and it takes me an hour to sum up the energy to leave the house - NOTE, not because I'm nervous, but because I have such little energy. I'm not nervous of people lol I work 9 hours a shift in a supermarket.

Here's the other thing - the world thinks I have depression. Doctors, friends and family, the internet...everyone. Seen so many doctors and they vary from horrible crap to friendly but still pretty crap. They say get exercise, get socialising, "break down your barriers" etc. It's so patronising. Like anyone who would even be suffering from depression it's totally to do with social things and they just basically need to perk up. I find it insulting, to me and genuine depression suffers.

I will admit I have anxiety. But not social anxiety, as I mentioned. Just general, god this is awful I have no energy I feel so run down literally how am I going to get through today? I have displayed some symptoms of an underactive thyroid, including losing the outer half of my eyebrows. But no weight gain, which is apparently a key symptom for that. I just don't know anymore, I keep almost trying anti depressants to see what happens but every time I look them up I'm struck by the awful risks and think "ok if I was depressed I guess I'd have to do that but I mean...all I read about is people with depression who have had awful stuff happen to them and they've got social anxiety etc"....yet even without ADs these people seem able to do more than me. I hope nobody finds that insulting, but honestly I'm the guy who wants to do loads but literally have no energy. When I have a rare good day, through exercise and good diet and reading, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. It's like my body was just drained for years and needs calm. But it never stays consistent due to various life things getting in the way. It's also incrredibly fragile. I just don't know what to do and seem to have very little options. All I keep hearing and reading is depression depression depression and patronising words.
0
reply
Anonymous #1
#2
Report 2 years ago
#2
Did you mention to your doctors about your concerns about your thyroid? If you mention your symptoms, they can run tests for this. I was feeling rundown and I got blood tests done. It turned out I had a blood disorder which caused anaemia.
0
reply
ironandbeer2
Badges: 15
Rep:
?
#3
Report Thread starter 2 years ago
#3
(Original post by Anonymous)
Did you mention to your doctors about your concerns about your thyroid? If you mention your symptoms, they can run tests for this. I was feeling rundown and I got blood tests done. It turned out I had a blood disorder which caused anaemia.
Thanks for replying I had some blood tests which came back clear, apart from being "borderline hypothyroid". However this happened before and when they tried the second time a few months later the thyroid was normal. Also, when I have my good days and weeks, the eyebrows etc start to grow back so I'm thinking that while the thyroid may be affected by this, it's not the root issue. Should have made this far clearer in my OP, I'm just so tired apologies.
0
reply
Nathan Scott
Badges: 13
Rep:
?
#4
Report 2 years ago
#4
(Original post by ironandbeer2)
I currently have a job. I am never off sick and always on time; indeed much of the time when I turn up (generally 10-15 mins before) I just start straight away. I do all tasks asked of me and get everything done during the day. I have no emotional breakdowns through the day and must look like any other worker, I assume i.e. maybe some good elements to me, some bad, but yeah...nothing special.

After a long time of having a really awful sleep pattern, staying up late and getting up late, it's now am far more normal schedule. Even when I had the bad sleep pattern, I was never staying in bed due to not wanting to get up - I was just tired. I never want to stay in bed because I feel sad; it's the opposite - I want to be up too much, and this has led to me losing a lot of sleep in the past.

I take a great interest in things such as education, politics, the world etc.

Here's the thing though - I have no physical or mental energy. Sure I said about doing the job, I can do that as I need to and I get through it with instructions from a manager. But as for actually sorting my life out? No chance. I can't concentrate, just writing this post is totally taking it out of me, and it takes me an hour to sum up the energy to leave the house - NOTE, not because I'm nervous, but because I have such little energy. I'm not nervous of people lol I work 9 hours a shift in a supermarket.

Here's the other thing - the world thinks I have depression. Doctors, friends and family, the internet...everyone. Seen so many doctors and they vary from horrible crap to friendly but still pretty crap. They say get exercise, get socialising, "break down your barriers" etc. It's so patronising. Like anyone who would even be suffering from depression it's totally to do with social things and they just basically need to perk up. I find it insulting, to me and genuine depression suffers.

I will admit I have anxiety. But not social anxiety, as I mentioned. Just general, god this is awful I have no energy I feel so run down literally how am I going to get through today? I have displayed some symptoms of an underactive thyroid, including losing the outer half of my eyebrows. But no weight gain, which is apparently a key symptom for that. I just don't know anymore, I keep almost trying anti depressants to see what happens but every time I look them up I'm struck by the awful risks and think "ok if I was depressed I guess I'd have to do that but I mean...all I read about is people with depression who have had awful stuff happen to them and they've got social anxiety etc"....yet even without ADs these people seem able to do more than me. I hope nobody finds that insulting, but honestly I'm the guy who wants to do loads but literally have no energy. When I have a rare good day, through exercise and good diet and reading, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. It's like my body was just drained for years and needs calm. But it never stays consistent due to various life things getting in the way. It's also incrredibly fragile. I just don't know what to do and seem to have very little options. All I keep hearing and reading is depression depression depression and patronising words.
Not all depression is caused by bad experiences, some is genetic/biological such as low levels of serotonin - which is what anti depressants are used to help with as far as I'm aware?

And yeah you should tell your doctor about your symptoms.
0
reply
X

Quick Reply

Attached files
Write a reply...
Reply
new posts
Back
to top
Latest
My Feed

See more of what you like on
The Student Room

You can personalise what you see on TSR. Tell us a little about yourself to get started.

Personalise

Are you worried that a cap in student numbers would affect your place at uni?

Yes (136)
58.87%
No (52)
22.51%
Not sure (43)
18.61%

Watched Threads

View All