i wish my dad liked me. I wish he would show me affection and hug me and tell me he likes me. I hate seeing other people in real life having such a good relationships with their dads where they clearly mean the whole world to their fathers. I think maybe if I do well in my GCSEs my dad will start liking me again like he used to when I was a kid. I'm crying while typing this I wish I knew what I did so wrong that he can't stand me anymore. I can't even hold a conversation with him and it just feels horribly tense and awkward around him.
Go down as Britains most twisted physcopath
I started watching f1 again and the engines sound like complete **** compared to videos back from 2004
I have the same temper that runs in my family, I'm just better at controlling it
Came here to laugh lmao not for the feels
I am blessed individual with a lot of potential. Unfortunately I have so much internalised shame I feel too anxious when I even leave the house
Also **** you too Luke
I want to be able to love someone and be in a proper stable relationship with them but I'm unable to catch feelings for people like I used to. This has happened ever since I was utterly broken and betrayed by an ex who cast me away like it was nothing and repeatedly lied to me.
I've ruined multiple other relationships and deteriorated the (already fragile) mental health of those people because of my inability to have any feelings other than self preservation. I regret that I caused them harm, and I regret not being able to commit them as I know that it COULD have been a very good thing.
On one hand I wish I could go back and never make the mistake of entering into relationships with these people. On the other hand, ever mistake teaches me something. I'm ever more cautious about committing myself now.