Post anonymously something you want to get off your chestWatch
I wish I didn't have to marry you.
You were supposed to be the second most important person in my life, but you screwed that one up. You've ruined me. You've broken me. You've hurt me, but that's how I know I must be strong, I guess. I'm surprised most days that I'm still here. Still breathing suffocating air. I don't know how I feel anymore. I hate you with every fiber of my being. I hate you so much, yet I saved your life. Does that make me a hero? Or a fool? I still have night terrors, you know. Thrashing in my sleep and waking up to my own screaming. Yet, you're living the classic American dream, and I'm still stuck with these memories. How can life be so unfair? So cruel? Doesn't God punish the wicked? I've waited long enough for God, I think. Sixteen years. I guess that's why I gave up on God. You've left me with such an unforgivable mess and I'm still cleaning it up endlessly. It's so hopeless and infinite and dark and heavy. I would really like to just give it all up and be on my way, but it's not that easy. I'm so...angry. So...empty. This all feels like a joke, really. Like someone's playing some big, nasty, cruel hoax. It's left me so mixed and tangled. Too mixed and tangled. I don't think I'll ever be unwound.
I want to be forgotten
i wish i could be one of those youtubers who's able to share things like getting into their dream uni/college etc, or even just random stuff and still get views for it but i'm so awkward on camera, i dont have much of an exciting life, i'm just a btec student so boring.
I can't write a long message right now but I just wanted to let you know that I have equivalent a level grades to you, plus I didn't attend a top university, but I successfully applied for a summer internship at a Big 4 firm last year and received a graduate offer.
I hope the university you are at provides you with support to help you achieve your potential and also that you have some work/volunteering experience, or that your university can help you get it. That's what was important for me
You can still achieve your goals <3