Everybody seems to realise or know i have no friends

I don't just know what to do anymore. My mum told me how a family member came to the house a month ago explaining what he thinks of me. It was something of the lines of 'He uses work as a motive because he does not have friends' (something along the lines of that, not a quote). Perhaps my parents told him that i don't have friends and this tells my Autism isn't getting better as before my autism was basically invisible to people. The disorder just keeps getting worse and worse.

It is true though, i go to work because i have no friends, and i don't even have friends in my workplace. Everyone at work sees me as some weird **** because i'm socially anxious. I also use work as an excuse on Sundays to escape church because i can't socialise (left Christianity due to poor social skills). I don't follow my family to social situations or to my home country because it's clear nobody sees me as normal (and my parents wouldn't tell people i'm autistic because they too hate the disorder so we all keep it a secret)

I'm in third year of uni and i used uni as a way to try and make friends. This backfired strongly as after freshers, the people i hanged out (some i even called them friends) stopped talking to me after two weeks. Flatmates didn't bother with me and mental health deteriorated from there leading me the following year to live all by myself and disassociate myself from lectures.

I just don't care anymore, I just hope to die young tbh and people to forget me. I can't stand this depression, being alone anymore. I have really tried to make friends but i haven't had a friend since i was a child and now people are seeing it which wasn't like this before, it even makes it harder to gain friends. I didn't ask for this life.

I'm not exactly the best in social situations either, and have gone through periods of depresion, and thinking this way has helped me cope with it. Everything you are going through right now, the negative comments, the social difficulties, even the people who look down on you-- theyre all TEMPORARY and will not affect your achievements UNLESS YOU LET THEM, so ignore all of it, keep working hard and stay positive my friend.

Show those who doubt you what you can achieve despite the hardships, and trust me you won't be forgotten anytime soon

Don't let that stop you remember if you can't fix it feature it...don't be scared and tell people you have autism..socializing is a muscle it can only be improved..you are not alone most people are bad communicators try reading the best books on socialising.
and if you want people to like you get them to do you a favour..once someone does a favour for you they will rationalise by thinking they must like you it can be anything and don't be afraid to say anything...say whatever you want judging what u say is a big issue the best way to have a conversation is with 0 thoughts in your head

I can't tell people i'm autistic, not even my parents even agree with telling people that. People just has to figure that themselves which actually never happens because the autism i have isn't severe or moderate, it's high functioning.

although i do agree with you that the best way to have a conversation is zero thoughts in the head and just giving it an actual go. It's just people in this generation are just so difficult to get along with.

But for how long can i continue like this, it got progressively worse in 2011. But yes all i can do is moan.

Yeah you cant really go on like this, because the key thing is not letting it get to you.
You can cope with it and even get free off the depression like I did by just keeping yourself occupied, as it breaks you free of this endless cycle of depression.

Or if its really bad, talk to someone. I understand that its hard to talk about things like this because you might think you look weak, but trust me thats the last thing people are gonna think. IMO it takes a lot of courage to seek help about sensitive issues like these.

How are you coping with your social issues? do you feel they are getting better or worse?