So I have something wrong with my brain which kind of made me fail uni. (Professionally diagnosed with OCD, also diagnosed with another neurological disorder i would rather keep nameless, in which I personally disagree with my doctor because I know better )
I never sought out help before uni because I just have a very inflexible and obsessive personality. Well, besides the fact that at one point my parents forced me to see a psychologist which I stopped wanting to go to.
Also because I felt ashamed with admitting something was wrong and that I was mentally weak.
My first year of uni went surprisingly okay, I mean I was still very much clinically insane at that point, just was pretty mild.
Second year, my grades started to slip. Usually my grades went from an A to B or C grade. Not too concerning, but I was starting to increasingly notice my OCD and depressive symptoms slowly becoming more of a problem. That summer, I don't know what happened, I just snapped. Started to experience panic attacks more frequently (the name doesn't really convey how terrifying a full blown panic attack is like)
I joined a year long internship but I was fired for never talking to others, leaving early because my commute was an hour and 30 minutes and unusual OCD behaviour).
My third year, my OCD and depression got really out of control (as in spending a good portion of my day doing my compulsions and focusing too much on the intrusive thoughts to really study or focus on school) as a result I failed.
I had to repeat my 3rd year, which I did. However, I had to repeat with capped grades.
I was prescribed an anti-depressant around this time (Which made me suicidal btw), but eventually I did notice a very mild reduction in feelings of anxiety, guilt and self-loathing. This was great, I'm now on the highest dosage possible, the side effects completely floored me but I prefer being on high doses. Started researching more potent antidepressants which seem to work better but only a psychiatrist can prescribe them and they have more serious side effects or they're easier to overdose on.
I did also try seek help at this time at the urging of a friend. I was referred to a local psychiatric service, spent some time visiting the university counselling service too (found it quite helpful actually). I did also apply for mitigating circumstances around October but it was rejected because the school has a 'fit to sit' policy. I can't really explain the ensuing confusing shitstorm but its being sorted out by my union advisor. So now I'm just waiting for more information.
What do you think should have happened to me?
Do you think this is fair? Watch
- Thread Starter
- 06-10-2017 18:43
- 06-10-2017 19:03
Sorry to hear about your struggles and good that you found help. After reading this I understand that the uni rejected because of their fit to sit policy.
You should hope for the best but if it doesn't work out you could start self-study with the open uni or something like that. There is always a solution.