3 of my friends persuaded me to pay about £500 to go to Disneyland Paris with them for my birthday in October half term. At the time it felt like it would be fun to do something special because it's my eighteenth.
However last week I went to an open day in Edinburgh with one of the 3 friends (and 2 others). I had a huge panic attack in the morning and was anxious the whole 2 days.
I have had panic attacks often for a couple of years but I haven't done anything about it because I didn't want to go on medication and my parents aren't huge believers in mental health problems.
I now know I am really not going to enjoy this trip and will probably cry most of the time.
I also can't stop crying right now. I don't know what to do as I'm can't cancel as I'd lose my money, but I am dreading going so so so so so much. The girl who came with me to edinburgh makes me even more anxious because she's quite controlling and full on. Please help
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