I'm male, 25, 115kg. 4 months ago I was 106kg in my last period of "success"
I can't keep a diet up for longer than a day, maybe three. I've had three bouts of success where I managed to keep it up for a month or maybe more.
I try to eat 1200 calories
When I fail, I get frustrated and stop eating all together until I have a ridiculously bad binge.
I eat out of loneliness + boredom I think. I don't go out and have no friends
and of course, it's not healthy food i'm eating, it's always something tasty.
I don't know what to do, it seems like when I am more "mindful" and intentionally not wastefully consuming calories, I do better. But I can't keep it up for long. I constantly remind myself I'm not actually hungry and eventually fail anyway.
I've been referred to a weight clinic but not heard anything yet, I'd definitely be anorexic at this point if I didn't like food/eating food so much.
I doubt there's much new information for me to gain here but it can't hurt to try I suppose.
Suppose it's worth mentioning depression anxiety and sleep problems (a lot of the time can't/don't want to sleep until I can't keep my eyes open anymore)