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    First of all, I apologise for the bad grammar and lack of punctuation in this post but I'm just writing as I feel.

    Since I started college I can't seem to get rid of this feeling of "crappiness". 0 of my friends go to the same college as me (even though I have seen a few familiar faces) and I'm by myself all the time except during lessons.

    I always used to be quite a confident person. I would run for things like class rep, head girl, be in the student council,etc however I've drastically lost that side to me. I applied to be a student ambassador at college and received the role. We had a meeting today at 9 and I've been overthinking it since. I didn't articulate myself as well as I would have liked. I didn't put my ideas across in an enthusiastic manner, I stuttered a lot, idk, I just didn't make the impact I wanted to. I know to most people this seems small and stupid but for me, it's everything. I've always been known as someone to be confident and bold but lately, I haven't been. I have a lot of ideas I want to put across but constant thoughts of self doubt are stopping me.

    Also, I've been trying to get a part time job to pay for a few of my own things because even though it's probably all in my head, I feel as though I'm an annoying financial burden to my parents and financially they haven't been doing too well since the summer. I've been searching since June and nothing. I've had an interview but apart from that just rejection emails. What am I doing wrong? Would somebody please be able to look over my CV?

    The day before yesterday I had an argument with my mum and she said some really hurtful things (which I know was said purely out of anger) and I could have shrugged it off but instead I cried afterwards for 2 hours and went to bed exhausted.

    I haven't read over the previous paragraphs so I'm sorry if it was painful to read and there's a lot lot more I would like to type but I just can't get it out.


    I'm not used to feeling weak. I'm not used to feeling this sensitive. What's happening to me?
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    You need a big hug from all of us :hugs:
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    oof dude that sucks
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    (Original post by shawn_o1)
    You need a big hug from all of us :hugs:
    Haven't even had a hug for about 2 months now
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    oof dude that sucks
    It's horrible
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    I hope you're feeling better now, but omg I feel exactly the same!I used to be head of school council but ever since I moved to a bigger more competitive sixth form I keep having this overwhelming sense of self doubt and I overthink every single thing. I absolutely understand the feeling that you aren't as confident as you used to be because I'm in the exact same situation. I find that talking to a teacher you trust can help, even just emailing them at first if you're too scared. They have a duty to help you and you should never feel like you don't deserve their support. Take each day as it comes and try not to worry too much. It will all fall into place, I promise .
    I hope you can find comfort in knowing that you're not alone x
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    (Original post by SincerelyMariam)
    I hope you're feeling better now, but omg I feel exactly the same!I used to be head of school council but ever since I moved to a bigger more competitive sixth form I keep having this overwhelming sense of self doubt and I overthink every single thing. I absolutely understand the feeling that you aren't as confident as you used to be because I'm in the exact same situation. I find that talking to a teacher you trust can help, even just emailing them at first if you're too scared. They have a duty to help you and you should never feel like you don't deserve their support. Take each day as it comes and try not to worry too much. It will all fall into place, I promise .
    I hope you can find comfort in knowing that you're not alone x
    I actually am feeling a lot better now and I haven't necessraily got my confidence back but i'm doing everything I set out to do and I'm taking every day as it comes

    *I think i posted the OP from another account but i am the same person lmao*
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    I actually am feeling a lot better now and I haven't necessraily got my confidence back but i'm doing everything I set out to do and I'm taking every day as it comes

    *I think i posted the OP from another account but i am the same person lmao*
    You're still anon #1, so you're still the same account
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    I’m sorry you feel that way ☹️ Try getting used to college. The more used to it you are the easier it will become and you will feel less anxious. I’m sure your mum didn’t mean anything she said. Parents say a lot of things out of anger similar to us. When you are angry the first instinct you have is to hurt the other person I’m sure she didn’t really mean anything she said 🌸 everyone gets nervous don’t worry it’s also a natural thing. Just try to figure out what is making you feel like this and then fight your battles because that’s the only way your going to win. Regarding the issue about jobs continue searching. Some people looks for months and months and then find one. It takes time but hopefully you’ll find one 🌺☀️
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