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Can't attend lectures, can't socialise & depressed watch
- 13-10-2017 22:40
(Original post by Anonymous)
- 13-10-2017 22:42
Drink by myself, xbox, watch porn, go on tinder, speak to cam girls (yes i pay them) look at sex ads.
I mean i obviously don't wanna do that, i would go to lectures if i had i found out the cause why i'm socially inept. Uni is pointless for me anyway because i gave up my main career ambition as a teacher because of me being a mute person. i don't care if i graduate with a third class honours. After uni, i'm gonna be a recluse or continue in my summer job as a waiter.
At least you have graduated whilst i'm on the blink of giving up. Does your depression still affect you or your feeling alright?
I wanted to be a police officer so uni was more of a backup plan for me. I thought if my plans fell through or I wanted to change career path it would be useful to have a degree so I never really needed one but I have been diagnosed with depression and now psychosis so that'll never happen. I put the stress I experienced at uni as a contributing cause to my mental health diagnosis; I wish I'd never gone there. I'm sorry to hear you feel unable to pursue your career ambition, I know how hard it is when your dreams are snatched away but I think you should keep working at things and keep trying, don't give up on yourself. Waiter maybe for a while, but you can move up or find a different job you don't know where you'll end up.
I really do think from your posts here that it sounds like you're suffering from depression (though obviously I'm not a doctor) so would really urge you to get help for it. If your doctor doesn't take you seriously, see another - the first I saw told me I was just being a teenager (yes at 19). There's also mental health services at university who can help you with having someone to talk to, you said you haven't spoken to anyone in a week, I had periods like that too, the uni counseling service was really great for avoiding that. You can also speak to people on TSR, I don't know what I would have done without TSR (well, actually I do know what I would have done) it might not be IRL but you can build friendships and get advice. And to answer you, no I don't have depression anymore, I actually have a job though I struggle a lot with hearing voices.Last edited by Sabertooth; 13-10-2017 at 22:44.
(Original post by IrrationalRoot)
- 13-10-2017 22:45
Nah I've sort of learned to live with it. I don't know how, I guess just because there's no other option. The degree is very easy (getting a first is a total breeze, even without going to any lectures) and again, there's no other options for me, so I'll continue to enjoy the lack of responsibility I have at uni before I get totally screwed over when I leave, unable to find a job and will probably enter spiralling depression.
- 15-10-2017 11:40
You have done really well to get to your third year.
' I will be the first student in British history to spend four years in university with no friends.'
Beats dropping out! You have nearly two years to achieve something here. And I know it wasnt what you wanted for the first 2 years. And I know that regret can hurt like a *****. I get it 17 years on. We can only look forward.
You have a summer job! Its a shame your parents are not more supportive.
You do sound like you are in a low place right now. Someone out there cares. We care otherwise we would not be posting. And yes I know we are no substitute for face to face human contact. Try a GP or mental health service. (Birmingham has Pause for 0-25 year olds if you are there say.)
I know alcohol can be an escape. You don't want to know how many bottles of white lightning I got through in my room alone in Halls in the first year! It just makes you more anxious and depressed in the long run though!
Dont feel you have to limit yourself to uni to make friends. Any waiting part time jobs going at uni? Try meetup.com too!