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    I'll try my best to make this comprehensible (no promises)

    Lately I've been feeling very... odd.

    Forgetfulness:
    Many times a day I will completely forget what I wanted to do, what I wanted to research, what I was about to write, why I walked into a certain room, why I opened a container etc. I know this happens to everyone from time to time but at this point I forget the sentence I was going to write 4 seconds after thinking of it, it's making my everyday life quite irritating. Plus when I put an object in any place other than the one I found it there's a 98% chance I'll never see it again.

    Clumsiness:
    I've always been the type of person to trip on flat ground but lately I can't go a day without spilling something on my keyboard, tripping on my shoelaces, dropping a plate or just genuinely ****ing up a normal action like taking the lid off a mcflurry. I can't hold anything for anyone in fear of dropping it and breaking it.

    Comments from friends:
    A friend from high school used to always call me disabled, she was the type of person to insult people jokingly so I assumed she wasn't serious and just laughed along, but now I hang out with a different friend and she says the exact same thing, and she makes it obvious she isn't joking around. Once we were walking to class and she stopped me for a minute to ask if I'm autistic, why would she do that if she wasn't concerned?

    Just what??
    I'm just out of it, I looked at my cat and asked him to pass me my can of coke from the desk.

    I can't understand anything that I don't already know:
    I just sit in my psychology lessons and although I'm listening to the teacher, paying attention to everything she says, I can't answer the questions at all, my mind goes completely blank and nothing written in the question makes any sense. My friend explains it to me, the teacher comes over to explain it to me and... I still don't understand anything, everything they say to me just sort of bounces off. I can't piece information together at all, I need someone to do the thinking for me so I can remember it and copy them.

    I get upset by very small things:
    My mother needed to wash my bed sheets so she gave me some white ones for replacement and the instant I looked at my completely white bed I broke down crying; I'm not sure if it's just the change that made me so frustrated but it's like my room had a completely different vibe and I just couldn't handle it. Another example would be when mcdonald's ****ed up my order and gave me a chicken fillet burger instead of a chicken mayo (yes there is a difference) this is starting to sound completely stupid but I felt like locking myself in the bathroom and crying. Also my poster falling off my wall warranted a full on temper tantrum.

    I'm too self aware:
    I can't just walk around like a normal human, attend classes like a normal human, eat in public like a normal human. I notice the smallest things and I don't really know how to explain it but it's like i consider all the possibilities, if I'm speaking to someone in class about work I start thinking that I sound awkward, that I said something suspicious, that I said it in the incorrect tone of voice, I carefully plan everything I say before I say it, and when it comes out of my mouth I hear it in slow motion. When I'm walking I'm consciously thinking 'right leg, left leg, right leg, left leg' I never get a break.

    I feel very disconnected from the world:
    I have no idea how to explain this, it's like I'm in my own little bubble and nothing on the outside affects me at all, all my problems are magnified within the bubble and nobody can enter except me.

    I'm uncomfortable when I'm 'happy':
    it's like something isn't right when I'm happy, I feel more comfortable in my little bubble of self hatred and negativity, in a way I enjoy it.

    There's probably more but my thumbs hurt from typing and this is already too long...

    I'm not sure if I'm looking for advice, I think I just needed to share it lol. I'd write some deep **** if I wasn't so tired.
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    (Original post by Anonymous)
    I'll try my best to make this comprehensible (no promises)

    Lately I've been feeling very... odd.

    Forgetfulness:
    Many times a day I will completely forget what I wanted to do, what I wanted to research, what I was about to write, why I walked into a certain room, why I opened a container etc. I know this happens to everyone from time to time but at this point I forget the sentence I was going to write 4 seconds after thinking of it, it's making my everyday life quite irritating. Plus when I put an object in any place other than the one I found it there's a 98% chance I'll never see it again.

    Clumsiness:
    I've always been the type of person to trip on flat ground but lately I can't go a day without spilling something on my keyboard, tripping on my shoelaces, dropping a plate or just genuinely ****ing up a normal action like taking the lid off a mcflurry. I can't hold anything for anyone in fear of dropping it and breaking it.

    Comments from friends:
    A friend from high school used to always call me disabled, she was the type of person to insult people jokingly so I assumed she wasn't serious and just laughed along, but now I hang out with a different friend and she says the exact same thing, and she makes it obvious she isn't joking around. Once we were walking to class and she stopped me for a minute to ask if I'm autistic, why would she do that if she wasn't concerned?

    Just what??
    I'm just out of it, I looked at my cat and asked him to pass me my can of coke from the desk.

    I can't understand anything that I don't already know:
    I just sit in my psychology lessons and although I'm listening to the teacher, paying attention to everything she says, I can't answer the questions at all, my mind goes completely blank and nothing written in the question makes any sense. My friend explains it to me, the teacher comes over to explain it to me and... I still don't understand anything, everything they say to me just sort of bounces off. I can't piece information together at all, I need someone to do the thinking for me so I can remember it and copy them.

    I get upset by very small things:
    My mother needed to wash my bed sheets so she gave me some white ones for replacement and the instant I looked at my completely white bed I broke down crying; I'm not sure if it's just the change that made me so frustrated but it's like my room had a completely different vibe and I just couldn't handle it. Another example would be when mcdonald's ****ed up my order and gave me a chicken fillet burger instead of a chicken mayo (yes there is a difference) this is starting to sound completely stupid but I felt like locking myself in the bathroom and crying. Also my poster falling off my wall warranted a full on temper tantrum.

    I'm too self aware:
    I can't just walk around like a normal human, attend classes like a normal human, eat in public like a normal human. I notice the smallest things and I don't really know how to explain it but it's like i consider all the possibilities, if I'm speaking to someone in class about work I start thinking that I sound awkward, that I said something suspicious, that I said it in the incorrect tone of voice, I carefully plan everything I say before I say it, and when it comes out of my mouth I hear it in slow motion. When I'm walking I'm consciously thinking 'right leg, left leg, right leg, left leg' I never get a break.

    I feel very disconnected from the world:
    I have no idea how to explain this, it's like I'm in my own little bubble and nothing on the outside affects me at all, all my problems are magnified within the bubble and nobody can enter except me.

    I'm uncomfortable when I'm 'happy':
    it's like something isn't right when I'm happy, I feel more comfortable in my little bubble of self hatred and negativity, in a way I enjoy it.

    There's probably more but my thumbs hurt from typing and this is already too long...

    I'm not sure if I'm looking for advice, I think I just needed to share it lol. I'd write some deep **** if I wasn't so tired.
    Hi there. This is clearly causing you issues so I suggest you go see you GP. If you're not sure what to say you could just print out what you said here. Nothing to be embarrassed about- they're professionals and it's all confidential.

    Might also help to take a look at mind.org and sane.org for some info and advice ion MH conditions. I'm obviously not qualified to say if this is or isn't one, but it's affecting you mentally at the very least so some of the advice on there may help you feel a little more comfortable or in control.
    Some of the stuff you've mentioned sounds like symptoms of depression so you may want to start there.

    Hope that helps
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    My advice is to speak to your GP about this as it is causing multiple problems in your everyday life.

    I think that a possible cause of your forgetfulness might sleep deprivation. That has happened to me before when I didn't get enough sleep on a regular basis so I could barely focus on anything.

    I can relate to the being too self aware part because I pay attention to a lot of detail, often plan what I'm going to say and worry what others think of me; just remember that other people probably don't notice/pay attention to the things, that you worry about (the way you sound, act etc.) so they won't be bothered by them.
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    Ye I would talk to a GP
 
 
 
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