I don’t want to post rubbish on here but I have no one to talk to. I have no friends since i finished year 11 because the 2 that I did have went to college and I stayed at sixth form. I miss them so much because even though they weren’t interested in me for the last few months of year 11, they helped me so much from year 7 because I’ve never been good in social positions. I love them and it’s so hard because they have forgotten me. I just can’t make new friends, yeah there’s a few people who I talk to if I’m sat next to them in class but I don’t bother with them out of lessons. It’s really getting to me now and I feel like I’m not going to get anywhere in life (job, friends etc) because I just can’t talk to anyone- as soon as someone talks to me I’m just so awkward. I can’t look at the teacher when they talk to me because I feel so awkward. Whenever I’m out whether it’s in the street or in the corridor I feel like I’m in a bubble and my heart beats faster. I always feel like I need to cry and I manage to hold it back most of the time but if I’m alone and I just want to let it out I can’t. I don’t really know what I’m trying to get out of this and I feel like such an idiot for posting this but I’ve just had enough.
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