I'm 21 years old and I've suffered with mental health issues since I can remember. I'm a very anxious person and can have really bad days of just sitting there and thinking the whole world is against me.
I've refused to speak to anyone about it but I'm starting to become really concerned about my future. I want children and to fall in love and to have a beautiful big wedding! What girl doesn't right? But for some reason every time a guy starts to like me or shows me that he cares for me in any kind of way it puts me off big time! If a guy is affectionate or shows that he really likes me it makes me feel sick and dirty. I've never been in love and I'm scared that I'll never give it a chance because of how stupid I am.
I overthink it all too! 'What if I get with him and he stops me from meeting the one' 'what if he isn't the one?' 'Will my family like him'
I'd rather have sex with a guy and roll over and go to sleep then to cuddle with him. I don't like the idea of dates!
What is wrong with me seriously!!!???😒